18 something weeks

HGS's attempt to outwit the arcade's Jackpot machine because the prize was a ...

Eeyore, the donkey. My niece has an unusual obsession with this Eeyore fellow.

Lilo is really quite ugly after all. Jackie wasn't even interested in destroying it when we brought it home for her.

We got our Eeyore!



We also got enough sweets to last us for the next couple of years...

There she is.

Updates: I'm not showing, not yet. I merely look fat. Arrgghh...

The movements I have been feeling since 16 weeks has become pretty obvious by now. It is becoming easy to predict the times BB is asleep and awake. It seems to get a little more excited when Kierra and Brenda speaks, nudging repetitively from inside. To think back, it got pretty excited during the match on TV a few days ago, Man U vs Arsernal. I think it was HGS's shouting, it got it going.

It was really weird initially, and frustrating, trying to differentiate if it was gas, muscle spasms or the first movements. But now as it prods and nudges insistently the way you can't miss it even when I was up and about, active, I'd have to say it's really pretty entertaining.

Just finished a satisfying pep talk with Mr Ho. That would probably last him for the next 2 weeks or so. I'm contented, for now. =)

Starting to keep track at 17 weeks =)

"Hi guys, there I was at 10.8weeks..."

I was reading an article on water birth last night and it explained the reason why pregnant women often feel spaced out and forget things. I always thought it had to do with hormones, but was unsure why.

A very simple explanation is that our brain is divided into 2 parts, the thinking part of the brain and the emotional part of the brain. It is the emotional part of the brain which releases hormones essential for your baby's development. The only way for your brain to release these hormones is to shut down part of the thinking part of the brain, thus we feel a little retarded from time to time.

This is also true during labour as your body needs to dump all sorts of hormones to help the uterus contract. I have heard of "Labour Land" the place that women retreat to in labour - this is because the thinking brain has taken a backseat for a while. It is extremly important during labour to feel relaxed and comfortable in your surroundings so you don't have to use the thinking part of your brain as it will release endorphins and adreniline which can block the hormones and cause labour to slow down.

Once you are fully dilated your thinking brain will kick in, block your emotional brain from dumping hormones and release all those endorphins and adreniline so you will feel the urge to push. After the baby is born once again your thinking brain takes a backset and large amounts of the hormone Oxytocin are dumped causing you to fall madly in love with your little bambino and at the same time helps you to birth the placenta.

It is just so cool that our body just knows how to do all that!

And I wonder how I am going to survive the next 5 months, given how blur and absent-minded I was to begin with. Hai..... XP

Hi Eliza, here they are!

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2007 - A year of fond memories

I know what I want this X'mas

Life.


Mine,


it's always been full of irony and strange twists.


God must've been meaning to teach me mini lessons


For He did not cripple me


He did leave the window open this time.


It took a few weeks for the whole disarray of emotions to pass


I do hope I'm done being angry with myself


It was pretty unpleasant


Feeling angry with everything and everyone for such a long period of time


It was difficult to live with


Myself.


I know what I want this Christmas


There is a list of fathers and husbands I hope would drop dead asap,


if that is not achievable, please just turn them into a vegetable.


Thanks Ah Pa, Amen!

Say...

Just when I was resigning myself to the fate of a short-lived-cruel-twist-of-ironic-fate ending

The prospects of having my reproductive tubes ruptured and cut off

Scares me a million times more than immediate death itself

Silly to entertain such thoughts I know

I just cannot stand the thought of never being able to be good enough

For the life I wanted to lead

For the partner I would want to be with

I'm so tired of waiting

I'm so tired of worrying

I'm so sick of the lack of answers to their unconfident diagnosis

Is this it?

I dun wanna look at the websites anymore

But I cannot help looking them up over and over again

Typing different variations of key search words

Only to get the same answers over and over again

"Nobody can confirm, anything is possible...."

Treading into the big unknown...

I really did not expect anyone to understand

But my perspectives are clear

Life might just become a little harder

But I know that I would be able to get by anyway

I know I would be able to put all things right

Because I would never allow Life to whip me into submission again

Call me cocky

But I would resolve everything along the way

One by one

Step by step

I aim to make the best of whatever may come

The occurences are God's will

The obstacles are God's way

There are no doubts casted now

I am not worried

Because this is me

And this is what I want.

Long Overdue : *Warning - Extremely Graphic*

Sorry for the long period of absence. No internet access, plus, busy busy trying to sell my flat below ...

The most memorable birdday I had this year - 2007

(Yes dear, my friends saved your arse, you can actually say that again and again and again...)

I love this, my Black Angus Prime Rib.

Tiramisu at Modesto's

Narcissistic Willie *snigger*

A sweet surprise from Joey

And Mack.
(Now you know why I am getting fat, wait til you see below...)

NYDC with Kierra and the strange monkey with a misplaced tail...

Thanks to Jules and Brenda, salmon sashimi is so totally outta the league now, dammit...

There goes the prettiest steamer I'd ever had.

Ramu's Curry

Meridien Hotel Food Court

She's just happy to visit Sentosa for the 1st time.

But so friggin tired after an extremely active (and chaotic) day.

And as a lazy person blogs, here, my niece.

More pictures of her when she is more fun okie? Now she's no fun...

Byeee! :)

A long time ago

The biggest regret of my life

The enormous folly of youth


Sorry seems so small and insignificant


As our chapter was given a proper closure


As our passion once fiesty and wild were given a proper burial


Along with our shattered dreams of hope, faith and youth


Emotions suppressed


The proper mourning in place was deprived


This closure would be for you


I'm sorry


I know you are sorry too.