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2007 - A year of fond memories

I know what I want this X'mas

Life.


Mine,


it's always been full of irony and strange twists.


God must've been meaning to teach me mini lessons


For He did not cripple me


He did leave the window open this time.


It took a few weeks for the whole disarray of emotions to pass


I do hope I'm done being angry with myself


It was pretty unpleasant


Feeling angry with everything and everyone for such a long period of time


It was difficult to live with


Myself.


I know what I want this Christmas


There is a list of fathers and husbands I hope would drop dead asap,


if that is not achievable, please just turn them into a vegetable.


Thanks Ah Pa, Amen!

Say...

Just when I was resigning myself to the fate of a short-lived-cruel-twist-of-ironic-fate ending

The prospects of having my reproductive tubes ruptured and cut off

Scares me a million times more than immediate death itself

Silly to entertain such thoughts I know

I just cannot stand the thought of never being able to be good enough

For the life I wanted to lead

For the partner I would want to be with

I'm so tired of waiting

I'm so tired of worrying

I'm so sick of the lack of answers to their unconfident diagnosis

Is this it?

I dun wanna look at the websites anymore

But I cannot help looking them up over and over again

Typing different variations of key search words

Only to get the same answers over and over again

"Nobody can confirm, anything is possible...."

Treading into the big unknown...

I really did not expect anyone to understand

But my perspectives are clear

Life might just become a little harder

But I know that I would be able to get by anyway

I know I would be able to put all things right

Because I would never allow Life to whip me into submission again

Call me cocky

But I would resolve everything along the way

One by one

Step by step

I aim to make the best of whatever may come

The occurences are God's will

The obstacles are God's way

There are no doubts casted now

I am not worried

Because this is me

And this is what I want.

Long Overdue : *Warning - Extremely Graphic*

Sorry for the long period of absence. No internet access, plus, busy busy trying to sell my flat below ...

The most memorable birdday I had this year - 2007

(Yes dear, my friends saved your arse, you can actually say that again and again and again...)

I love this, my Black Angus Prime Rib.

Tiramisu at Modesto's

Narcissistic Willie *snigger*

A sweet surprise from Joey

And Mack.
(Now you know why I am getting fat, wait til you see below...)

NYDC with Kierra and the strange monkey with a misplaced tail...

Thanks to Jules and Brenda, salmon sashimi is so totally outta the league now, dammit...

There goes the prettiest steamer I'd ever had.

Ramu's Curry

Meridien Hotel Food Court

She's just happy to visit Sentosa for the 1st time.

But so friggin tired after an extremely active (and chaotic) day.

And as a lazy person blogs, here, my niece.

More pictures of her when she is more fun okie? Now she's no fun...

Byeee! :)

A long time ago

The biggest regret of my life

The enormous folly of youth


Sorry seems so small and insignificant


As our chapter was given a proper closure


As our passion once fiesty and wild were given a proper burial


Along with our shattered dreams of hope, faith and youth


Emotions suppressed


The proper mourning in place was deprived


This closure would be for you


I'm sorry


I know you are sorry too.

Mama says I must act like a girl now that she's got me a new dress...

The back view

Yeah right, like hell I will.

*snigger.. snigger..*

五月天 志明与春娇 Live

Now this was what we were trying to sing the last time we went KTV. In case Brenda wondering, you know?

I must have been outta my mind.

I dunno but it's okay

Treading softly treading gingerly, each step unsteady and overwhelmed, with a strange concoction of mingled new hopes and old fears.

I abhor the uncertainty and unfamiliarity, as we bring this bond into a different transition.

What would you think if I do this or that? The uncertain little girl had to act up in me.

My vulnerability exposed and defences let down once again, as I struggle to meet new expectations, and you try your best to keep up with old demands. When you no longer deemed them necessary, but you are trying to understand why.

My cynicism kept under wraps, when you could somehow present me the renewed confidence and strength each time we fall. I may not be sure, I may tread in fear, but I want to place my last stakes in this gamble together with you.