Past the stage to feel any pain nor sorrow
I no longer know what to do with my life
What to feel and what to think
I dunno what is the next step I should take anymore
Physically, mentally and emotionally I feel so drained
Everyday I drag myself to do the same things I do everyday
Smiling at customers, laughing with friends and joking when I am at home
I appear to be the same
But I am actually just a walking dead
Dun be mistaken
I am not unhappy
I am just devoid of any emotion at this point
To think that I still have an imminent divorce battle to fight out in a few week's time
Maybe my to be ex-husband would instead inject some new life and fighting spirit in me
Soon
We'd see.
Monday, May 15, 2006
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I've learnt that
Happiness is internally generated
If you have to rely on Someone or Something to make you happy,
You'd never be truly happy anyway.
I do feel very empty somehow.
Actually, that's true!
That's why i went into musical theatre, the one thing that i love oh so much...
And it somehow completed me...the character playing and singing my lungs out in front of an audience who came just to watch your show!
Its not the fame...i swear half the people can't see what u look like, the oh so tiny speck!
But its my passion for it that drives me...burning weekends on half day rehearsals...8 hours!
It takes me away from Adam also.
Gives him space and stuff...and gives me time to myself and the character i'm playing...
Watch some musicals la!
Its really fun!
-Tanya-
I watched a few musicals, not that many but I really loved the experience.
I really think the people whom act and sing in musicals to be really amazing people.
Cheers!
Well, grief about it for a while, lament about it for a while,
cry about it for a while.
After all, a sense of loss is a very human experience and its good to immerse yourself fully in it.
But you know at somme point, you have to detach yourself. You know wiped your eyes when you stopped crying.
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