Musings

I feel it

The familiar surge of unrest and fidgety that follows

Guess I couldn't handle it so well after all

Guess I just wasn't as matured as I thought I was

I'm getting along fine and I'm happy everyday

But as usual

I just thought it could be a little better than this

I have been down that road before

It's all a waste of time and energy and money

And I swore I'm so so done and over it

But the overwhelming desire kicked in so suddenly

I gasped for breath and in surprise

I knew I just had to give this one last shot

Fuck, I just wanna go clubbing just one last time before they ban smoking in the clubs in July leh.