Thank you for your concern, to probably the only two people whom reads my blog.
I had been the walking dead for the past week or so, can't bear to think, can't bear to feel.
Maybe something died in me, the night I read his reply to my email.
I dunno, it's too painful to start thinking, I dun wanna start.
I dun even wanna be left alone for a minute so silent thoughts can creep in.
It is harder to give him up willingly
Then it was if I was left with no choice
I wished he had left it to end in silence
Than him smsing me last night to say sorry
The problem I am facing now is no longer the issue that triggered off everything
It is the issues which emerged, opening my eyes to an otherwise blissful relationship
I dun deserve him
I had been selfish to keep him for seven years
All along knowing he deserves better
I had been selfish, wilful and wasted seven years of his youth, time, money, energy and effort
If I had any last shred of decency and conscience left in me,
If I had really loved him
The only last thing I could do for him now is to leave him for him to move on to better things
I know you would not agree with me
But you were not here to see, to hear and to feel.
Friday, March 31, 2006
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2 comments:
Whichever it is, don't regret your decision. As for now, move on happily. Afterall, you are not getting any younger. If you need someone to speak to, I'm back to work.
I believe yours is a mismatch of expectations. Happily, the solution is simply compromise. At the danger of oversimplifying, I believe your demands are quite simply time and attention. Whereas Mr J is just such a cool dude. Unfortunately, the problem have been allowed to fester for too long, so you guys do need help. I have to warn you, Mr J aside, if you don't solve out your side of the equation, the problem will persist, irregardless of who is involved, short of marrying a dog.
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